Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Run, baby, run!

What have I got to lose?


But, I'm still nervous about running the 17th Annual Army Birthday 10 miler tomorrow morning @ 6:30AM!!!

And I think I have a legitimate reason :: I had mono the first 2 1/2 weeks of May.

Looking back in April 29th when I found out from the Dr. that I did in fact have mono I was a mess. I had already been feeling undertheweather for 9 days. So, I was instantaneously depressed from the Dr's words, "You'll be sick for 4-6 [more] weeks. Rest and drink water.", thus entirely convinced I wouldn't be able to run the 10 miler...

But, I prayed, my mom prayed, my friends prayed, my husband prayed, and I boosted my immune system with vitamins (and water and rest;))...and a week and a half later, my health started coming back!


I got to put in a couple "long" runs before the race and ended up 11 seconds off my pre-mono running ability, which is nothing race adrenaline can't make up for;) 

So, while I hope to still achieve my pre-mono diagnosis goal of a 7:30/min per mile finish, considering the stress my body endured from being ill, I'd be happy with a repeat of last years 8/min per mile finish.

But, it's probably best that I let go and let God. He, is my healer.

Be blessed!

Saturday, June 1, 2013

2013 Focus!

Besides a new hairdo, this year is looking a bit different!
I even attempted a new blog during my focus crisis ;)
May 2013
Because last triathlon season I competed in only two triathlons, but quite a few running races (because, hey, they were cheaper AND closer!), I'm not quite sure what this "racing" season has in store for me.

But when it comes to the "life" race, I have decided not strive to do it ALL this year but focus on ::
Loving better  
"Your love frees my soul/
And fear has no hold/
For you have broken the chains/
Now joy fills my life/
Your spirit, your light/
I'm undone by the kindness of Christ."
-Glorious by Bryan & Katie Torwalt
Running faster
"I believe God made me for a purpose, but He also made me fast. When I run, I feel His Pleasure."
-Eric Liddell
Writing more
"Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you!"
-Psalm 63:3

I made a similar paired down commitment earlier this year, and still agree that Ida Scott Taylor puts it best ::

“Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has yet to come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering” 
-Ida Scott Taylor

Sunday, May 26, 2013

Memorial Day 2013

We will always remember. We will always be proud. We will always be prepared, so we may always be free. 
-- Ronald Reagan

As a military spouse I know many spouses who have had friends' husbands pay the ultimate price for our great Nation, but I have not held a friend tight in my own arms who has lost her husband...

My heart selfishly hopes I never have to experience those emotions with a close friend. But when you can't imagine your husband doing anything but serving our Nation...well, you get the idea.

As Memorial Day Weekend drew near this year I began to realize it felt different. 

The excitement of a four day weekend with my husband home wasn't as exciting as I gradually recollected where I was this time last year and the emotions I was feeling or trying not to feel...

The first picture I saw of my husband after he deployed! I cried.
My husband was deployed to Afghanistan the majority of last year. It was our first deployment. Many of my seasoned military spouse friends recognized it as a "hard" deployment. They are all "hard", but these guys were in harms way more than my husband will even admit to me today.

I had previously volunteered to be the FRG Leader for my husband's Company, which basically means I got lots of good news and bad news first throughout the deployment [and had to pass good or bad news along to the spouses!]

I'll never forget the first "bad news" email I received [any "bad news" not pertaining directly to your Company was sent via email].

My husband had only been gone two weeks and I was headed to the gym. Out of habit I checked my phone in the locker room for any communication from my husband, and there it was...two men had been killed in my husband's Battalion [there are 6 companies in a battalion]

I was numb. Numb enough to just plug my headphones in and run as hard as I could on the nearest treadmill. But not numb enough to hold back the angry and frightened tears when I called my mom on my way home.

You see, these two men had been killed by "members" of the ANA, the Afghan National Army.  They were the first of many KIA's during this particular deployment from "green on blue" attacks.

First deployment, first two weeks of the deployment, first bad news email, and two men lost their lives at the hands of the individuals they were sent to train. I was a mess and confused.

And I think I still am confused most days. Even though I didn't know any of the KIA's personally from my husband's deployment, it still doesn't seem fair.

But what is worse to me than "unfair" is not remembering their sacrifice.

You may not agree with the Afghanistan or Iraq wars, but you cannot disagree with the selfless choice of our brave men and women in uniform who choose to stand up for their convictions in the face of death.

Remember your freedoms. Remember the price paid.

These fallen heroes represent the character of a nation who has a long history of patriotism and honor-and a nation who has fought many battles to keep our country free from threats of terror.
--Michael N. Castle